What it takes to influence the world with light

For some time now, I’ve felt like going more into my shell. I felt like hiding in my corner or not engaging with people except when necessary. I can’t remember when this started but I feel like it’s gone on long enough. Sure, it has helped to keep my mind sane and quiet. But it also means that I’m not sharing as much value as I can share.

When I see others putting themselves out there and doing what I know I should be doing too, it reminds me that I need to show up. There’s a lot of work to do and I should get involved.

I also remember my Pastor’s words, “Influence is for the bold”. How can I influence the world with my light if I don’t show up to do the work?

On the other hand, I wonder if I’m able to bear the cost of showing up to influence my world with light. Sure, it’s a noble assignment but it’ll cost me too. Compulsory personal growth. Less alone time and lazy couch moments. Sometimes, 1 – 2 hours less of sleep time. More engagement with people. More exposure to people’s lives and their challenges. Simply put, it requires sacrifices.

How then can I succeed in doing the work yet staying sane as an individual?

I’ve also wondered how Jesus did all He did. How did he engage with so many people during his ministry? I’m here thinking of how to reduce my direct engagement with the people around me. Yet, Jesus did the work the Father sent Him and still had enriching relationships with people.

While I wonder how Jesus did it, the Holy Spirit reminds me. All Jesus did, He did by the Spirit. And now, the same Spirit lives in me. This means that I can do the work my Father gives me too.

I’m learning to embrace this truth. Although I still create boundaries to have my (extended) personal time, I’m choosing to renew my mind. God has equipped me by His Spirit to do what He has for me to do per time. As I hold on to this, I embrace the strength He alone can give me for the work.

If I don’t play my part, people might suffer. This isn’t to put more burden on me, it simply reminds me that playing my part in the body matters.

So, here’s to showing up, consistently and purposely, with the help of the Holy Spirit in me.

It won’t always feel easy but to influence my world for Christ, I must put in the work. Even when I’m tired, I rest and get back to work. There’s no giving up.

Overall, the benefit of obeying and doing God’s work outweighs the momentary cost to self.